Tuesday, May 3, 2011

With one closing, another opens...

When did this happen? When did he get so big?

I haven't posted about him turning one yet because I think I am in denial. I vividly remember a year ago standing (I should have been on the couch, I was on bed rest) in our bathroom sobbing that I was ready to have him...and then later that evening sobbing in the shower because my dr had called and we were going to meet him for an emergency c-section. Along with having our little man I also had my tubes tied, it was a medical decision, but I never thought it would effect me the way it has. 

On his birthday, a year later...probably down to an exact minute or two, I found myself sobbing in our bathroom again. All of a sudden I was am having second thoughts. I know that we prayerfully made the right decision for me medically, but I am having a really hard time with this chapter of my life to come to a close. I will never again feel the sweet movement of life growing, hear a first cry or hold my new born again.

However, I am truly enjoying the opening of a new chapter in Preston's little life. He is such a sweet, gentle spirit. The Lord knew what he was doing when he sent us this little guy.

We had his party at my parents house, and I will post those pictures later...but here is one. He ate SO much cake. I was sure he was going to be sick...but he never was.

Gosh, I sure love him!


1 comment:

Sarah said...

Reading this post about Preston made me get a little choked up. He is so adorable. I can relate with the feeling you are having about closing one door and opening another. It is a sad thought to think that there will be no more of our babies in our home either.

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